The worst feeling (part 3)
The “I just need to do this and then everything will be finally good” feeling.
The constant hope and expectation that this feelings will end after you have done a specific thing or endured a specific situation, crumbles a lot of psychological stability from the inside. You feel more and more suffocating because this end and with it the good part doesn’t come. The more energy you invest to hope in another situation which you have to master to finally reach this rescuing point, the less energy you will have after it. At the end the frightening numbness is the result of this procedure.