There is a sadness in me.
A sadness
only parents can understand
while I have no kids!

A sadness that is
in compassion
with god
while I have created no world!

The sadness of the knowing
where there is nothing but show.

The sadness of a teacher
with students unwilling to know.

There is a sadness
but not in me!
The tears of life itself.
Its love
has not suffice
to open hearts and dwell.

Farzam Mikail Fardowsi

1.5 Erste Meditation (Der Mythos) (Part 5)



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Aus der Reihe “Der Anker – Meditationen über Sinn und Sein

Damit wir an dieser Stelle verstehen, was diese komplizierten Formulierungen bedeuten versuche ich das Ganze in ein Mythos zu Packen.

Vorneweg dies ist ein Mythos, damit hat er keinerlei wörtlich zu nehmende Wahrheit in sich, sondern kann nur im Verstehen einen Anriss geben, was ich versuche damit zum Ausdruck zu bringen (Stichwort: Fehlbarkeit der Sprache). Dementsprechend liest und versucht zu erfühlen, was ich damit im Zusammenhang zu der Meditation zum Ausdruck bringen will.

Besondere Anmerkung: Das Ganze ist weder weiblich noch männlich und beides Zugleich, auch wenn ich sprachlich hier von einem “er” spreche (Wegen “der” Grund!).

Nun zu dem Mythos:

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1.4 Erste Meditation (part 4)



Über das “Res Cogitans” (Ich ist ein denkendes Etwas) und dem Unterschied zum (Res extensa) (Es ist ein existierendes Etwas) sind wir auf die Unterscheidung von Sein und Existenz gekommen. Diese Unterscheidung haben wir über die Relation von Existenz zu Nichts getroffen, denn Existenz ist durch sein Sein im Modus des “Da”, also als Dasein nicht Nichts.


Sein und Nichts sind zusammen das Transzendentale Ganze und damit gemeinsam Eins, aber als Jeweiliges im Ganzen sind das, sich ausschließende Entitäten.

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Recently I thought about Alchemy and I was thinking of the law of the Conservation of mass. The rule basically says that, in this already existing world (in a system), nothing comes from nothing and nothing perishes in nothing, therefore, it ” implies that mass can neither be created nor destroyed, although it may be rearranged in space, or the entities associated with it may be changed in form, as for example when light or physical work is transformed into particles that contribute the same mass to the system as the light or work had contributed. The law implies (requires) that during any chemical reaction, nuclear reaction, or radioactive decay in an isolated system, the total mass of the reactants or starting materials must be equal to the mass of the products.” (thank you Wikipedia)

Phew I hope this was not too hard to understand!

What I am trying to say is. I thought about birth and I thought how wonderful it is that the whole world starts to give mass to oneself from the moment two poeple make love, we are born, to the moment we grow up and then, when we get older, we start to give mass to the world until our death. Just the idea of it let me feel as being part of something big, receiving and giving the blessing of the whole world. Of God in person. And if we stay in this idea and get rid of a model determined just in physics. Think about the personality we become and the thoughts we do give into the world. Where do they go? What do we change with them?

I believe that everything we think, everything we do, our whole existence has an impact much more defining as we realize in this world. And not only our existence, every existence matter, every existence has an impact on our lifes, on each life and even on the reality itself. But one small variable stands and I will whisper it softly, knowledge (Erkenntnis) is the key to perceiving reality.

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A lecture on Life


A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles roll
ed into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full.. The students responded with a unanimous ‘yes.’

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The steps we have to take!


“I am afraid of losing control over myself. Because any hope I had, anything which gave me trust to others is currently fading away. Instead I try what the world wants and try to cultivate myself to the forms the world wants me to be. If I can find my gap in this world, I will finally find my love or people will acknowledge me. Just fight! Adjust to the world and fight until you find your spot.” is a thought I catch myself with every now and then. I want to fight but I don’t want to control myself,! I want to be as I am! There is even a term they teach you when you have lost to the “others” and start controlling yourself because you see others as your enemy or you have a strong need to have the structures of the world define how you feel. All for the moment, that if you give in to the structures of the world, you will not feel at ease with yourself at last, because you have a disease. There are names for it, when you obsessively try to do something because the world compels you to take a certain way of life or do something just to fit in. A Disease. Which you can read in books! Heck, there are whole chapters in catalogs with names like DSM-V or ICD 10 about it. Very adequate categorizations of your misbehavior. Continue reading